my mind is a pile of nonsense

the idea of understanding the society never really occurred to me, until recently, i've met some friends that truly believe in the power of making the society a better place. the third sector. how unfamiliar and detached the word sounds. any word that has "third" in it all seems to indicate its marginal position. let me start with the connotation with the word third. third to me indicates the unfamiliar, the part that hasn't been fully understood, being isolated, being especially pinpointed as not being the mainstream, the marginality. all these meanings are the subtexts of the word "third" this is probably one of the reason why its study has been somewhat neglected over the years. let me emphasize the power of wording and language. the meaning, cultural identity, values most of the time would be hidden under each and every words. they are not to be overlooked. they can't afford the risk of being overlooked. these all could create misunderstanding between people's interaction. Language is one of the most fascinating thing in the world. its power is incalculable.

i wanted to point out my misbehavior of digression, but i found out a better way to solve the problem is to change the subject. which I did. there should be no problem of digression from now on.

NGO depends on humanity. humanity, the nature of good, the original self, is what makes NGO thrives. its advantages and vitality can be overwhelming. believing in humanity is absolutely possible. yet believing there is only goodness in humanity is called naive. this is the mistake some of the NGOs might make. yet this will be a dilemma. i believe in the art of balancing, and of each power should own equal strength to achieve balances. once you lose hope in human, you will become businessman. everything can be written into numbers. once you have to much hope in human, you might dedicate yourself into religion. whichever way, you'll lose your neutral stance. though there's never a absolute neutral stance, but the idea of absolute is not neutral enough.

I'm lost.