Consuming + Production

It took me a long time to start writing this first sentence. Not that I'm lazy or anything. ok , coz i'm lazy and I haven't spent too much time thinking lately. Riding a scooter an thinking can be pretty dangerous, so i chose now to start writing what I have in mind. It's actually a perfect time for me to write, i'm in the office, internet working super well, colleague on vacation, boss not in yet. I can't think of another time when i'll be able to think and write.

Oh well. gibberish.

I am a hardcore consumer.
I shop, eat, watch movies, read books, listen to music. basically I live on other people's production. which makes me somewhat sad, because I can't recall when I was being the one producing. Did I ever write anything?no, my self-consciousness has blocked me from expressing myself openly. Did I ever write a song? people say you need talent to do that, I truly doubt it, there are hundres of songs that are shits but still being made, talent is the excuse for doing that. Did I ever make anything by using my hands?

Nope, not one thing I can recall...

Therefore,so far, I've failed to make myself distinctive in the world. I tried to count how many things I've written throughout my conscious years. other than the uni projects or reports that i had to hand in, there's nothing much left to say. so basically, I've been writing only when it's not even my intention.

oh crap.

this situation should be changed, my friends, this is a note of determination. of writing whatever I have in mind. of whatever shits i have to spit out, of whatever things I have to share!!

DETERMINATION!