Tolerance

Being a nicer person is becoming an issue for me. I do believe in positive energy and thinking. But then again, there are some times when you just kind of forget about it and which leads to tension in lives. Being in such a small group definitely triggers the neurotic sides of me. Once you figure out the annoying aspects of a certain someone, you begin to find all the flaws on this person. It's unstoppable and the things of him/her that annoys you will continue to appear without your permission.

It is only this time that tolerance comes to work, it's an art of forgetting. Forgetting the aspects that really bother you. I've been trying hard but getting stuck all the time.

It is exactly at time like this we need some upbeat music.


can't get the song out of my head. At ALL.

once a wise man told me

There is no reason for breaking up. The point is the act and intention of breaking up.
When there's no mutual goal for the future, it usually means that's it.
The reason why one keeps going back to the old lover, is because one hasn't found anyone better yet. Once got back together, one finds that the old lover is still not the most suitable one, therefore facing another breakup. The whole routine just keeps continuing until there's no one suitable anymore.

Being friends will always be easier than being together. Therefore we come to a temporary end.

Hello new life.

The inevitable guilt

my mind is a pile of nonsense

the idea of understanding the society never really occurred to me, until recently, i've met some friends that truly believe in the power of making the society a better place. the third sector. how unfamiliar and detached the word sounds. any word that has "third" in it all seems to indicate its marginal position. let me start with the connotation with the word third. third to me indicates the unfamiliar, the part that hasn't been fully understood, being isolated, being especially pinpointed as not being the mainstream, the marginality. all these meanings are the subtexts of the word "third" this is probably one of the reason why its study has been somewhat neglected over the years. let me emphasize the power of wording and language. the meaning, cultural identity, values most of the time would be hidden under each and every words. they are not to be overlooked. they can't afford the risk of being overlooked. these all could create misunderstanding between people's interaction. Language is one of the most fascinating thing in the world. its power is incalculable.

i wanted to point out my misbehavior of digression, but i found out a better way to solve the problem is to change the subject. which I did. there should be no problem of digression from now on.

NGO depends on humanity. humanity, the nature of good, the original self, is what makes NGO thrives. its advantages and vitality can be overwhelming. believing in humanity is absolutely possible. yet believing there is only goodness in humanity is called naive. this is the mistake some of the NGOs might make. yet this will be a dilemma. i believe in the art of balancing, and of each power should own equal strength to achieve balances. once you lose hope in human, you will become businessman. everything can be written into numbers. once you have to much hope in human, you might dedicate yourself into religion. whichever way, you'll lose your neutral stance. though there's never a absolute neutral stance, but the idea of absolute is not neutral enough.

I'm lost.

the best porno movie names based on films from 2007 and 2008,

Iron Man
Alvin In the Chipmunks
No Country for Old Balls
Gush Hour 3
Scat-atouille
I Know Who Drilled Me
The Suck-It List
I Am Legend....In Bed
National Pleasure 2: Book of Secretions
Horton Hears a Ho!



love to see them all.

Consuming + Production

It took me a long time to start writing this first sentence. Not that I'm lazy or anything. ok , coz i'm lazy and I haven't spent too much time thinking lately. Riding a scooter an thinking can be pretty dangerous, so i chose now to start writing what I have in mind. It's actually a perfect time for me to write, i'm in the office, internet working super well, colleague on vacation, boss not in yet. I can't think of another time when i'll be able to think and write.

Oh well. gibberish.

I am a hardcore consumer.
I shop, eat, watch movies, read books, listen to music. basically I live on other people's production. which makes me somewhat sad, because I can't recall when I was being the one producing. Did I ever write anything?no, my self-consciousness has blocked me from expressing myself openly. Did I ever write a song? people say you need talent to do that, I truly doubt it, there are hundres of songs that are shits but still being made, talent is the excuse for doing that. Did I ever make anything by using my hands?

Nope, not one thing I can recall...

Therefore,so far, I've failed to make myself distinctive in the world. I tried to count how many things I've written throughout my conscious years. other than the uni projects or reports that i had to hand in, there's nothing much left to say. so basically, I've been writing only when it's not even my intention.

oh crap.

this situation should be changed, my friends, this is a note of determination. of writing whatever I have in mind. of whatever shits i have to spit out, of whatever things I have to share!!

DETERMINATION!

SELF

跟大家聚聚真是太好了

覽柏你辛苦了

看到大家在尋找自己的位置

覺得 真是太好了 我不是一個人

採取點沙拉 吃大家盤裡食物的策略

點了清酒 臉紅紅的 溫度從臉頰直達手指

呼氣都是開心的

過了半年不以自己為重心的生活 時間重回自己手中

嚇了自己一跳

因為好多事情可以做

消失了好久 跟自己對話




人生充滿了各種可能性

這是真的。